time crisis

well,its hard to remain optimistic and to be cheerful ...my grandpa is hospitalised for the 4th week,which is 1 full month.He isn't getting any better.Which in turn,worsen.I knew he is in excrutiating pain....groaning in pain,bearing the pain,living in pain.He is still running a high fever for the 6th day.......His face is pale,blood pressure is much too low.A normal person blood bressure should be above 100 but his is only 60+....today,when he went for dialysis,something cropped up again.his blood pressure dropped even lower to 50+......immediately,the nurses stopped the dialysis session and the doctor quickly examine him.His condition is still a mystery.The doctors have no inkling about his illness.It is referred as a unique case.His body is attacked by unknown viruses.We are told to prepare for the worst.Watching my grandpa suffering is unbearable.I doubt he can hold on any longer....it's just a matter of time......He needed special bed too because due to lack of movements and lying on the bed for too long,his butt is itchy and redden...a spacious mattress which cost $10 more than the usual one per day.When he heard of it,he is even more depressed.He feels that he is a burden to us......definitely not!

For the year end examinations,i scored quite well which is quite comforting......6As and 1Bs......class position is 4 and level position is 7...im contented.

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2008 coming to an end soon!

my apologies guys for not updating my blog so often....boring eh?haha...but please bear with it...

well,so much had happened in such a short period of time..one of my relatives went to america with her son to reunite with her husband,my grandpa was hospitalised for almost 3 weeks,end of year examinations[finally came to an end] and tensions between my parents grew so strong because of my maid.

The thing that really worries and bugs me is my grandpa health...his health is deteriorating..just whenever the doctor signal us the greenlight,new illnesses will soon attack his body...making him real sick....for 3 weeks,he had been lying on the sick bay,unable to get up,in the ICU[intensive care unit].He had 2 major operations and luckily,all went smoothly.Now,he is admitted to normal ward which is a ''c'' class ward but its only for the time being.He still needs special attention as his illness might take a toll on his health once again.My family had decided that once he is discharged,we will hold his 75th birthday party.We are not taking risk by waiting for his actual birth date.We will hold a grand birthday party for him,celebrates his birthday in such a way that he will remembers it for life.well,i sounded quite pessimistic right?But still,i will hope for miracle.Pray everyday,hoping he will recover and be as fit as a fiddle,in pink health.Watching him suffering is painful for me.He humours me too despite of his health by pulling funny faces to make me laugh.He promised that he will get well so that i could attend his birthday party because i missed his 74th birthday party as i was in for council camp.Im SURE he WILL pull through this obstacle!A-gong jia you!add oil!haha......

NEXT,eoy examinations had finally come to an end!i hope its a good end!I have work hard and hope my effort had not gone down the drain.Hope to score with flying colours.

LASTLY,my parents strained relationship will improve further!It hurts me to listen to their hurtful remarks about each other.They exchange harsh words which often mortifies me.It makes it even less tolerable when they ask me to justify who is at a larger fault and pose questions that are even harder then exam papers.I often kept my mouth shut when it comes to judgemental qns......my mom is already unhappy with me in quite a few aspects and if i ......then wouldn't it makes matter worse?she does'nt like me though she denies...its clear that she adores my sis more and i never take it at my stride.....i've long gotten use to it....she thinks im a 'traitor' by being close to my relatives because she has some grudges with them which are adult problems....i don's think and will not allow their problems to affects whom i go along with.Its this attitude that she doesn't like and i won't change....i will stick to my status quo.If my parents are going to rank the five of us according to who they love most,i would definitely get the last placing..i always knew that.......ok,sorry guys for telling u all my unhappiness.im just trying to get it off my chest.....i feel better now!'thanks for reading...

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