free!!

well,yesterday packed all those make-ups that i possess.....alot that i wanna discard cox no more space for them to occupy....hha.....haha...then thought of charlie angels.......msg all 4 of them then all reply so fast!!!!!!!haha.......1st is siying,2nd,reeta,3rd,shuxin,4th,zqh...........haha......normally msg shuxin to await for her reply will be a few days...then cox of this shes replied so fast....haha.............all of them said yes!!!!!!!!!!haha.......i was surprised or rather taken aback by reeta ans.....haha....cos both of us usually very man de[1 issue to clarify!is til very man de only put on make-up for performances or really special events.....all make-up items are from my sis......all new de then she don wan......even branded de,,,like christian dior,lancome........haha] then now she also wan.....become gu niang liao......haha...i tol shuxin and zqh.....they were both surprised too...haha...........reeta good for u!!!!!!!!!!!!!now becoming ah gal liao.......haha



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mm,today help my dad...then went to ah ma hse.......delicious red bean soup waiting to be eaten by me....so fortunate ......love you ah ma....haha......every saturday will make red bean soup for me............*v*

well,i confessed to my dagu about the golden dress last week but she had forgotten to ask tell sheena[owner of the dress].......maybe need to compensate.....not sure.....but feel relief after releasing a burden from my shoulder........don wanna hide the truth anymore...........honesty is better......9_9

thats it.......re-watching bleach.....love it......thanks to chang hee william and kok kiong for recommending me this anime......and discussed it with me..........kok kiong!i win u for this pk challenge......haha.....i took a shorter period to finish watching.....haha.....don cry.....i can hear u.....haha....
and thanks chang hee for the earrings...



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started tuition since this tue........quite effective i guess....cant be sure though.......well,quite ex.......but cheap for 4 subjects isnt it??it consists =A-math =E-math =physic =english......8 lessons....and every lessons is 2 hrs........fees is $190...........going on the right track again........mux be studious.......cant wreck everything....all the efforts.......although the fees is $190,my dad only paid $100...i paid the $90.........after every 8 lessons......cant go out anymore.....theres so much things i wanna do but seems that i cant.........sacrifice is a definite mux..........scrimp and saved hard...play less........thats the most i can do to fork out the money.......


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WELL,MY RELATIONSHIP WITH MY FAMILIES has never been good.....but now hes become worse.....from worse to worst.....dad finding my mistakes.......telling me off at any other moment,mom,talk to me in a sarcastic way,siblings maligning me spoiling the computer,beat me,scold me,derogate me every now and then..........!_!


everything my fault.......feels like severing ties........i guess i won feel sad......im pretty sure that i won......they never really shower me with any care and concern..much more any love........*_*



one day i will depart from this hse.........this family.....



buying books,tuition fees,everything got to be cheap.........but thats an investment........isnt it???
many things i gotta pay myself.....thats hard.......im nearly at my wit end.....goin bonkers......



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photos consisting of wild wild wet performance,sakura outing

wild wild wet performance

on 7 dec,dustbusters went to perform at wild wild wet.........disney channel invited us..........unluckily shortly after our arrival,i became very sick[feverish and cough] and was escorted to the sick bay to rest........but insisted on performing.............abstaining from eating oily stuffs....so sad.....watch others ate kfc.........argh!but i ate only fish porridge......the soup was oily,the rice was hard and only 4 pieces of pathetic sliced fish........then watch others performances......i preferred heeleys.....so cool..........then our turn....felt groggy and vomited immediately after our performance.....boarded the bus and went back to sch.........then so sweet of kathleen and janice to escort me back home after hailing a cab....send me back under my block.......then ate medicine and slept......

returning from council camp

this year council camp is far much more better then last year one.....this year,we went malaysia gopeng,perak..........it is a 4 days 3 nights camp...........activities schedule is tight too.....well,the first two day we stayed in murni camp which is located at the countryside, the outskirt of the city.....the only thing i hate about that is the existence of insects!every spots leaves the trace of all kinds of insects........+_+argh!!!!!from small to big,from black to red,from those crawlers to those that spread their wings and fly....and at the 3rd day,we will move to a 5 star hotel[cant wait for it]......i will start from the very beginning of the whole trip .........

1st day..........
all councillors gathered punctually in the school at 7.30am sharp with huge backpacks slung from shoulder to shoulder.......and some is even exaggerating.with 3 or 4 bags.....consisting of sling,haversack,backpack............then all of us wrote down our particulars in the embarkation card........after that,we were split into 2 different grps.....grp 1 and grp 2.....unluckily, nicolette and i fell into grp1......whereas zqh,reeta,changhee,qingning landed in grp2........wad a loner i became.....at 8.15,all councillors boarded 2 different buses according to our allocated grp no......well,as expected,i sat alone........-_-a sudden loneliness surge inside me........i feel solitude.....and thought of frens......like[shuxin,siying,arvin,kiran,kok kiong,william,anthony,zhehuan]...........i being alone,cant help feeling lonely......everyone was chatting happily away,laughing and joking........pairs or even trio or even quartets together....but y is it only me solo?obviously,i cant mingle around with them nor can i speak the way i am......noe wad i mean?i cant present myself the way i am and i cant speak freely...u all noe how i am like in front of u guys and gals.........i jux noe that i am sad for some unknown reasons...i recollected the memories we[frens mentioned above] once had......the time we laughed hysterically,we joked,we talked craps,we played,we poured out feelings to one another and does things together..........reminiscing the times we spent together.........is sweet yet bitter at that time....u all werent there.....u wouldnt have guessed how i felt.........im glad that i had frens like u all......the memories has always keep me warmth and happy.....i would even smile stupidity to myself.............
we travelled for 8 hrs and stopped for lunch and toilet breaks from time to time....and is still alone wherever i go........perhaps im anti-social,inarticulate,ineloquent...........therefore no one will befriend me...........is that it?never mind,i knew the answers well enough......................................
at 5.40,we reached our destination after alighting off the bus and took 2 different lorries[one for each grp] into murni campsite...the track that we took was rather muddy.........and was fun throughout the whole ride.......stooping high and low,left and right so as to avoid hitting sticking branches,huge leaves and twigs that stick out from nowhere.........after about 7 min,we reached murni campsite...........speaking truthfully,i was rather disappointed but nonetheless glad that we r not pitching tent ......instead we r sleeping in hut...........we check out the whole vicinity after unpacking...........the toilet but i would rather call it latrine........and the shower place is rather expose.......theres 5 showering pipe and others from outside could see ur head sticking out......can u imagine?????no privacy at all..........no curtain or wadsoever..........and the cubicle is small and narrow and is pitch black.....although there is light in each cubicle,the bulb will flicker on and off..rather scary...imagine it went black suddenly when u r changing........*_*
well,our survival instinct.........wear clothes and bathe.........then change in cubicle.........thats wad we did..........................


bathe=dint bathe

after everyone bathed or showered,we gathered in the canteen and wait for the arrival of the food........{cooked by the locals}..............we queued up and get our food......after that,we sat down and waited for everyone to get theirs then did we start........im famished but still ate very little..........too weary i guessed.........
after dinner,we were briefed for tomorrow activities.........canyoning[waterfall abseiling] and white water rafting......
then turn in early for tomorrow tiring activities....but before that,we gals made a DIY changing room in our hut.....zzzzzzzzz


2nd day.......................
we woke up early in the morning to wash up and ate breakfast and set off to the abseiling spot............watching the water gushing down from the top was incredibly scary.....we were stunned.........one by one we wore the helmet and the harness............my turn came and i trekked up to the spot where we will descend.......the feeling is only scary!well,i slipped and laid in a m position...hahax.........then with water gushing down,i persevere and was able to land safely.................after everyone had their turn.we moved on to the next activity;white water rafting!!but before that we had a fabulous lunch....very very nice....hahaxxxxx........
phew,this activity is really tiring and exhausting......panting all the way.....its really a long way to paddle.....1 thing that was hilarious was charlotte's grp,other team shouting {one two one two....}to move on and move forward.....but theirs,was keep turning around and around...hahahaha......bwahahahaha
at the mid point,ku and i fell into the river after our raft hit on to a rock during rapid!that was oww.....my hand swell.........then found muhdnur laughing.......in the end he fell too and fell 3 times.......haha...my turn to laugh....and i admit!i laugh the loudest!!!!!!!!the moral of the story is that never laugh at others if not retribution will befall u!
end point is at the murni camp[theres a river beside it]
after such tiring activity,poor grp 1 got to collect firewoods for campfire!!!we fed the mosquitoes and its really painful......i was jumping up and down.........argh!!!carrying heavy firewoods into the shack and fed the mosquitoes .......its not the worst!the worst thing that we faced is heavy downpour!imagine torrential rain while u shower[remember wads mention above,no shelter jux pipe to bathe under the rain].......bathe=dirty...........
grp 2 was so fortunate!they bathe with sunshine,need not feed the mosquitoes,carry heavy firewoods......good for them.................but poor grp2............'bathe' le still wet..........
at night,due to the unstoppable rain,campfire canceled ..!_!
then everyone had dinner and went to pack bagpack cox we will be leaving the next day....staying in hotel!!!!!!!


3rd day
we had breakfast and then got into the lorry and set off for caving!!!!we were briefed and headed into the cave....the shapes of the stalagmites is really interesting!!theres elephant,unicorn,cat,chicken,a pregnant woman,monkey god,car,dinosaur and monalisa!after much crawling and walking,we had to go through 1ooo flight of steps!and finally out of the cave.............but before that,we experience the wind tunnel........with natural wind as cold and cool as air con but it isnt!its natural wind.......thats fascinating...........everybody washed up,we headed to the hotel!!!!!its really cold and comfy..........and the hot water is soothing for my nerves.......finally a good bath and sleep..........at night,we were brought to a shopping mall to settle our own dinner...me hazi and reeta shopped ourselves......helping reeta to look out for a bigger bag cox her current one was torn..........after reeta had chosen,we had our dinner with a few of the others at a cafe......i ate spaghetti ......not bad only but prefer pasta mania........haha...and chang hee bought claire a bag,me hazi reeta each a watch.....but i got to choose for both hazi and me cox my eye sight better...oops!hahaha
we returned to the hotel after everyone had gathered....initially,we had decided to party but everyone was so tired,we slept throughout the whole party....haha...........


4th day
in the morning,we had buffet in the restaurant.....really heavenly delicious........then board the bus to the hot spring spot........yea!1st experience.........really hot!no gals,not even one dared to try 41-43 degrees...cox its really hot..with smoke smothering...only me....haha.........so proud of
myself.......i even emerge myself inside ...some said im crazy but its jux a breakthrough..........haha....then we set off home sweet home..............

beach road

went beach road today with zqh, reeta, changhee and nicolette......to buy all those camp necessary items.......but helped my dad in the morning till afternoon(1pm) then went to mrt braddell stop to wait for the others to arrive........well......i waited for 1 hour!!!!we decided meeting at 1.....and they arrive at 2!!!!!=_=i was frustrated and whatmore i was not being informed before hand.......and wasted my time......i was supposedly helping my dad between this time cox its the peak hour....and also there isnt enough assistant but due to this,i left and wasted my time ....not 15 min,not 30 min BUT 1PRECIOUS HOUR.......who wouldnt get fury????not being punctual is one of the reason im angry and the other is that they r treating me like an idiot[thats wad i feel at that time]....i was pacing up and down,from left to right and right to left again and finally back to left to right.....and they either keep smsing me or calling me making me so vexed.........telling me the direction and which cabin i should board................my phone keep ringing and i became the attention of everyone...they are looking at me as if it is an entertainment show.....watching me as if im the animal from the zoo......free show....running up and down,left, right,..........i hung up all the calls when they called..........and i am s000orry for that......too angry........-_-
finally,i sprint to the last cabin of the train and boarded the train.......initially ,i told myself to contain my anger and F and F[forgive and forget] but i couldnt........although i did not flare up,i remained silent for the whole journey........even when nicolette greeted me,i chose to ignore it......and when she asked me which stop to alight,i still ignore her.........another apology........+_+
we alighted at lavender stop......then i approached the passenger service assistant and asked for the direction to beach road cox all of us were clueless even by looking at the map.....walked to the extreme right and took the escalator and walked towards the ICA building...and again,i approached a security guard and asked for the exact location of the beach road food court where they sell army equipments.......then headed towards a pathway and asked a few indian men again and crossed the road to the other side.....block 1.....after much walking,we reach our destination.....soooo happy.......and start searching for the items that we needed....i bought head lamp for $6.50, a big green bottle[same as reeta] at $18, a hook for $1 and spectacle stretchable band at $1.50............and after that,we went to eat.........chang hee and i bought from the same stall....i ordered beef hor fun and chang hee ordered fish hor fun,super duper nice..each $3.worthwhile..i ate that 4 years ago an dthe taste remains that heavenly...........nicolette ordered kway teow instead.............i am the slowest.....&_&
then the 3 of us shared a wok of chocolate with waffle and marshmallow...it cost $7.80..taste sooo great...1st time trying......-v-
too bad,hazi and reeta were at the 1st storey enjoying their halal food......they envied us ......hahax......
after all of us finished our food,we went to junction 8 to do some window shopping......but in the train,cox of zqh secret and reeta was left out,she got angry......and remain silence......[now her turn]...then i became hyper....trying to humour her and make her laugh......but to no avail......then when we reach bishan,reeta finally speak 'can i talk now'!!!!!!!!!!hahax...bwahahahaha........we were laughing hysterically.......we shopped all those branded shops like nike.......and became thirsty and went to food court for a drink treated by chang hee.....but i foot $2 for my papaya fruit juice and he paid $0.40 for me......hahax....like this call treat???haha
and while drinking,we chatted happily.....naming all the fruit that represents.......hahahahax.....[reeta,zqh,ch u noe wad].......reeta is watermelon,zqh is rambutan,i am papaya,she xin is apple,and siying is cherry!!!{we r in order}.........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hahax.........hope siying don get angry.....
chang hee is wintermelon......the melon category...same as reeta...ahahahahahahaha........+v+
then took the train back to yishun and i departed from the rest......bye bye....an enjoyable outing

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looking forward to the upcoming council camp to perak!!!

even holiday is so ....well,hectic..........................................drama meeting and musical and assignments,dance practices,council camp,work assignments,help my dad.......................and last of all,............................the most depressing problem i had now....................the golden dress is now lost.........lost in sch before school holiday................................and no one bothered to offer a solution....u al noe who u r....i have to face this myself...........well,almost all the lit costumes was borrowed from my families and relatives..........and now that piece went missing.........-_-
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wad am i goin to do...........................?_?
i jux got to tel my aunt the truth and probably gonna compensate with my own pocket money and get reprimanded................................................................thinking of this,i feel like crying................

im doom.........



yesterday,went to watch my sis volleyball match and as expected,they won shuqun sec........i invited 11 of u yet only 2 went with me......thnx kk and ch........................william ps at the last min........quite pathetic.........well,jux gonna give support to my sis since she is sad about the issue that my mom did not went to see even one of the 7 match she played............she won 6......cheer sis!
we took mrt to yio chu kang and took bus72 to hougang sporthall.........when the 3 of us stepped in,it is fascinating.........balls flying all around.......and then i headed towards my sis team and all of them LAUGH!the reason is tt we r twin...and we look too alike.....and they couldnt believe their eyes when they saw me and kept laughing......making me so embarrass...........after waited for half an hour,its my sis team turn.......they r against shuqun which my sis told me that they are fren....but they don look like it.........much more like foe and probably they cox they are opponent........they beep..............................................1st set started........ well,my sis team lost.......14 against 25......they are not focusing..kk and ch made so much noise and i was irritated by their sarcacism......then their coach reform the strategy plan..........2nd set start,they won.....also 14 against 25........now came the 3rd set...which is the last duel..................this time round the score is only 15.......and my sis team emerge as the winner............the tension atmosphere is finally over.........then they form a row and shake the opponent hand........
then went to eat at kfc.......then went arvin hse for deepavali dinner......and played blindmice....and we went home at 10++++++.....